Rainy days

There is this quote from my favorite Anime (Bleach) that Orihime Inoue says when it’s pouring raining in this one episode, it goes something like this:

“If I were the rain that binds together the heavens and the earth, whom in all eternity will never mingle, would I be able to bind two hearts together?

It makes you wonder, is it possible to touch someone’s heart from a distance? Does touching someone’s heart have to be physical? What does it mean to bind together two opposite ends that are never supposed to meet?

You’ll never be able to know what someone’s feeling or read someone’s thoughts, but you can sense it if you focus. You don’t necessarily need to touch someone physically to understand them, you can do it with words, with energy, with presence. The rain is an extension of the heart as it touches each individual with every drop. It connects long lost lovers and burnt out bonds without thinking twice.

Although we don’t see it, one can feel it. The rain is necessary to wash away the sorrows, sadness, emptiness, and grief. If anything, it removes all negative feelings from the world, takes it all on it’s own, and brings out the sun with a rainbow if you’re lucky.

The rain isn’t selfish, it proves that time and time again as it connects heaven and earth; two long lost lovers. The rain, it comes and goes based on the emotions of the heart. You ever feel a little off? Overwhelmed? Sad? Depressed? Then it magically rains, not just because the weatherman/weatherwoman finally got the forecast right. Ha.

You ever wonder why you feel so at peace hearing the rain? It’s because it’s taking the negative emotions from your mind/soul to allow the positive/warm emotions to flow once more. The rain is what brings life to droughts; kinda like it brings life to our hearts.

“If I were the rain that binds together the heavens and the earth, whom in all eternity will never mingle, would I be able to bind two hearts together?”

Yes, you would.

Being ignored. It’s annoying.

I don’t think people understand what ignoring someone can do to their mental health and self confidence. Yes, you shouldn’t care about whether or not someone responds to you in a timely manner or at all – it should be another one bites the dust type of mindset but sometimes it really does hit you.

Like why don’t you respond? Am I that much of a terrible person? What did I do to deserve this? What is something I said?

In reality, all of those questions are insecurities within oneself that needs to be worked on but that doesn’t make the feeling going away. That feeling of self doubt eventually goes away but sometimes it takes a little piece of you.

You don’t want to double, triple, quadruple text.

Then you don’t even text them at all for fear of rejection and you avoid them like the plague. Crazy huh? Maybe they do know ignoring you is going to hurt you are “get the message across” but we are adults, why can’t you send a simple message saying, “Sorry I don’t want to be friends,” or, “I’m just not feeling it.”

Maybe that’s too mature and people now a days aren’t even thinking with common sense. Silly but true, I wonder, how would they feel if they were the one being ignored?

Where are you?

Tell me, do you think of me?

Does your heart ache when you think of the “we”

Do you wonder what would have happened if you stayed?

If instead of disappearing off the face of the earth like you did that day.

Do you feel the highs and lows?

Does it ever cross your mind how badly this blows?

This blows for me, for you, for the time we spent away from the chaos.

Tell me, are you worried right now?

That while you’ve gone ghost someone else showing me how

How I should’ve been treated instead of how I was

Tell me, do you feel the energy shift?

That the distance you’ve placed between us has caused a rift?

Tell me, why won’t you reach out, why can’t you?

Did your ambition grow too much?

You’ve really gone too far

Too far this time, but here I wait.

Tell me, do you think I’ll wait forever?

Distance makes the heart grow fonder or apart.

Will you be ready to see what you’ve done to mine?